Thank You!

I know life isn’t perfect. I learned that the hard way. You have to learn how to appreciate life for the little things that pop out of nowhere. Like cold winter night walks in San Francisco next to the person you love. Like watching a smile slip out from a sleeping baby. Like… so much! There is so much we take for granted.

Now I know there are people that are much worse off than I. It could be worse, it could always be worse. I know I have a lot of people to thank, lots of people have contributed to making my life a better one. I just wanted to say thank you to everyone.

I especially wanted to thank him. Although these past few months have not been the greatest I still thank you, for you have given me some of the happiest days of my life. Not the only happy days, but some of the happiest. I don’t know what the future holds but something tells me you might not be in it. I hope I’m wrong.

I want to thank you because I am and was a bitter person. But even if just for a little while you made me happy, you made me feel alive, you let me know what passion was, and what I think is most important you made me feel love! You made me feel like I belonged, you gave me a reason to fight. For that I thank you. If I never hear from you again just know that I love you and that there will always be a space for you in my heart. All good things come to an end and I’m sorry we didn’t work out. I’m sorry.

There is a lot more I want to say I just can’t put it in writing at this very moment, I can’t seem to translate what my heart is saying to me.

If time lets me, I will forgive you and forgive myself some day, and maybe I can move on but until then I will mourn the loss of the most beautiful thing that I’ve had.

Disclaimer: There are other people in my life that have made a difference, and I’m sorry if I don’t mention it. It’s just that at this moment I am not well, I am not myself, I am without him, and he is my heart. Maybe someday I will be myself again, but the woman he made me feel I was I will never be again for she is somewhere else looking for his love.