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The Killers - Sweet Talk (Full)

The Killers
Sweet Talk

Lift me up on my honour
Take me over this spell
Get this weight off my shoulders
I've carried it well
Loose these shackles of pressure
Shake me out of these chains
Lead me not to temptation

Hold my hand harder
Ease my mind
Roll down the smoke screen
And open the sky

Let me fly
Man I need a release from
This troublesome mind
Fix my feet when they’re stumbling
And well you know it hurts sometimes
You know it's gonna bleed sometimes

Dig me out from this thorn tree
Help me bury my shame
Keep my eyes from the fire
They can’t handle the flame
Grace cut out from my brothers
When most of them fell
I carry it well

Let me fly
Man I need a release from
This troublesome mind
Fix my feet when they’re stumbling
Well you know it hurts sometimes
You know it's gonna bleed sometimes

Now hold on
I’m not looking for sweet talk
I’m looking for time
Top a tower and sleep walk
Brother, cause it hurts sometimes
You know it's gonna bleed sometimes
Hold on

You know its gonna hurt sometimes
When you call me
Hold on
Hold on
Hold on

I’m gonna climb that symphony home and make it mine
Let his resonance light my way
See, all these pessimistic sufferers tend to drag me down
So I could use it to shelter what good I’ve found

Hopes & Fears

I hope that someday our souls may meet again, maybe not in this life, but in any other.
I hope that someday our souls can thrive in the love they could not enjoy in this life.
I hope that someday our souls can love each other with the same amount of intensity they did in this life, if not more.
I hope that someday our souls can meet and become one and dance under the rain.
I hope that someday our souls can meet and not harm each other like we did here.
I hope that someday we meet again, if not in this life, in another.
I hope that someday there will be a happily ever after for our souls, together.
I hope, I hope, I hope…

No matter what anyone says I will always be innocent and naïve.

Because happy endings don't exist for you or for me

Suede
He's Gone

Tears on a pillow
Eyes on the phone
You pour all the love that you keep inside
Into a song
Like 'He's Gone'
And these are the thoughts that you keep inside
You smile from your window
And stand all alone
And pour all the love that you keep inside
Into the phone
Into the phone
And like the leaves on the trees
Like the Carpenters song
Like the planes and the trains and the lives that were young
He's gone
And it feels like the words to a song
With the style of a widow
And the place of your own
You pour all the words that you keep inside
Into the phone
And sit alone
And these are the thoughts that you keep inside
And smile from your window
And stand all alone
And pour all the love that you keep inside
Into a song, into a song
And like the leaves on the trees
Like the Carpenters song
Like the planes and the trains and the lives that were young
He's gone
And it feels like the words to a song
And like the stains on the names of the lives of the young
He's gone
And it feels like the words to a song
And like the leaves on the trees
Like the Carpenters song
Like the planes and the trains and the lives that were young
He's gone
And it feels like the words to a song
And like the stains on the names of the lives of the young
He's gone
And it feels like the words to a song
So gone
So gone

Thank You!

I know life isn’t perfect. I learned that the hard way. You have to learn how to appreciate life for the little things that pop out of nowhere. Like cold winter night walks in San Francisco next to the person you love. Like watching a smile slip out from a sleeping baby. Like… so much! There is so much we take for granted.

Now I know there are people that are much worse off than I. It could be worse, it could always be worse. I know I have a lot of people to thank, lots of people have contributed to making my life a better one. I just wanted to say thank you to everyone.

I especially wanted to thank him. Although these past few months have not been the greatest I still thank you, for you have given me some of the happiest days of my life. Not the only happy days, but some of the happiest. I don’t know what the future holds but something tells me you might not be in it. I hope I’m wrong.

I want to thank you because I am and was a bitter person. But even if just for a little while you made me happy, you made me feel alive, you let me know what passion was, and what I think is most important you made me feel love! You made me feel like I belonged, you gave me a reason to fight. For that I thank you. If I never hear from you again just know that I love you and that there will always be a space for you in my heart. All good things come to an end and I’m sorry we didn’t work out. I’m sorry.

There is a lot more I want to say I just can’t put it in writing at this very moment, I can’t seem to translate what my heart is saying to me.

If time lets me, I will forgive you and forgive myself some day, and maybe I can move on but until then I will mourn the loss of the most beautiful thing that I’ve had.

Disclaimer: There are other people in my life that have made a difference, and I’m sorry if I don’t mention it. It’s just that at this moment I am not well, I am not myself, I am without him, and he is my heart. Maybe someday I will be myself again, but the woman he made me feel I was I will never be again for she is somewhere else looking for his love.

For a minute there I lost myself

I’ve been finding lots and lots of hidden anger, I say hidden cause I don’t remember being this angry in the past. I’m becoming unrecognizable and getting to a point where this is the bitterest I’ve been my whole life. My fear is that this is only the beginning.

Winter, I love it and everything that comes with it or at least I thought I did. So I live in LA, the traffic could be worse, you know like New York or worse Mexico City. But we only focus on what’s in front of us. So back to the point, it rained last night, lord knows we need all the rain we can get, I think it’s only the second time we get rain this winter.

What frustrates me is that as soon as it starts raining, no, no, no, before the first drop even hits the ground people forget how to fucking drive. There is no need to drive 10 mph! It rained last night not this morning! Oh, oh, and then the stupid lights went out so the street lights were not working. Why do a few drops of rain cause as much damage as a storm? I’m sitting here and complaining and whining, cause it’s what I’m good at.

Trying to get away from the stupid drivers I became one of them. I was going so fast I didn’t realize the light was red. When I realized it I didn’t even bother to break. Next I get stuck behind a stupid bus making a right turn. Finally I get to work and I drop my badge under my seat, mind you I need it to get in the parking lot. All of a sudden the table has turned, no I am the stupid one holding everyone up. I manage to get the stupid badge, get through the gate, and park. I’m so angry by this point that I just wanna cry, not knowing why this has cause me such a tremendous amount of anger.

I don’t know what’s going on. I can’t stand much lately and I don’t mean physically standing up. Everything insignificant irritates me, frustrates me, angers me. And then there are things that do matter and I don’t care about them.

There are days I just want to live in my bedroom forever. So far every day this week has been one of those days...

The Killers - Shadowplay The Killers - Shadowplay

On a lighter note, lets dance!

What a joke!

So we all know how Cinderella ends. And they all lived hapily ever after…

I feel betrayed! As if if were part of some bad joke. Stipid naïve grace, she fell for it again and she fell hard.

Life is a fairy tale or at least that’s what it was supposed to be until I took a u-turn.

I hope Cinderella ended up getting divorced after she realized the prince was a stuck up jerk or her singing got on his freaken nerves!

Asside from that I hope you all have a beautiful day!